bace manual pun nak stress?

tajuk mengambarkan situasi saya sekarang. pelik tul. sejak dua menjak nih, kalo saya bace dengan konsentrasi penuh, pas sejam pastu, saya mule rase stress nak mampus. rase nak jerit2 melepaskan perasaan. padahal xde bende pun sangat. stress tuh sbb bace x habes2 kot. pale pulak dah penuh. saya suke sgt mendera pale otak saya utk terima dan terus terima selagi x abes bace.

saya juga jenis yg tak kan bace 1 ayat lengkap. saya akan amik point2 penting je dlm ayat2 tuh. percubaan membace ayat secara penuh la buat saya stress. sebab tuh jgn heran yang kalo saya cakap xde intro pastu ayat tergantung.

stress2 pun, saya rase ok je. sebab dah terbukti banyak kali yang saya akan sangat hebat ketika tgh stress. bukti pertama: mase form 3, kne marah2 ngan pengetua before exam trial math. saya buat math sambil nanges2 berjejeh airmata. resultnye saya skor markah yang sangat tinggi.

bukti ke2: form 2 1st test kemahiran hidup. saya dapat antara terendah. C ke D. x hengat dah. tapi kne la double pelempang ngan cikgu KH tuh. sejak kejadian tuh, saya la skorer. sampaikan dpt best student utk KH walaupun saya x straight A.

oleh itu, sile la buat saya stress utk saya lebih produktif ;p

20 questions

huhu... i'm too lazy to make 20 questions that my sv requested yesterday. All my sleep interupted by questions in mind. crazy meh! can you imagine that the questions like 'sheeps that jump one by one' to make someone sleep.

p/s: dd dudu, can you draw the 'stick man' to show what i mean?

huhu.. i have to be done with this assignment before 2pm.

things that make me stress

1) my laptop need a new hard disk. The hard disk was corrupted. i lost several works in it.
2) a bundle of work from my part time job make me feel that i have no life.
3) i got presentation today about my research and i do not know what to present because i have left it behind for weeks. the presentation will be heard by all lecturers in IS department ( the dean also in my department). So, i have to do the best.
4) i am broke. eventhough i do part time job, but it seems to be difficult to claim back what i work for.

huhu should i cry or what? every problems that i listed above are deadlocking each other.

space..

Need some space to comfort my heart and soul. Life is so complicated and need to be alone too.. Don't want to talk to anyone.. Don't want to see anyone..

busy, messy n unorganized of me

At the moment i jot this, i really tired,hungry (can imagine a day with only apple got inside of me) plus tension. Everyday is hard for me. I think now I couldn't feel anything.huh! just few hours I got a call that make feel unhappy. A lot of thing to catch up. I feel very, very and very busy, messy and unorganized. My life is so complex of things that I create for. Sometimes I also feel that I'm tired of being me.

stress week......

erm.. a bit stress of being part time lecturer in bangi. huhu.. need to change the schedule but lots of problem occured. i've think of to place resignation letter if i couldn't settle down this matter within this 2 weeks.